I just posted a quote on Instagram and it really got me thinking. (Dangerous things happen when I think too much)
How much do we focus on the future and therefore how much are we missing out on the now.
I am the first to hold my hands up and admit I love having things to look forward to . . who doesn’t!? But in the meantime are we merely just wishing our lives away to get to the next ‘exciting’ event? (deep for a Wednesday eve I know)
This year has been the most incredible year of my life! I bagged myself a new job in January, I had two amazing hen do’s, the most magical wedding and honeymooned in paradise (god I sound like I’m bragging now) but this is seriously how lucky I have felt this year to experience all these wonderful moments. I spent days, weeks, months, 2 years(!) wishing the time would go faster as I had so much to look forward to, yet now it’s all over I would give anything to do it all again! As the run up the wedding got closer and closer I started getting terrible anxiety. It was probably down to the whole enormity of the day and it was almost definitely down to making sure I was skinny enough to get in my dress (the stress we girls put ourselves under!) But what I realised more than anything was; I was getting anxious because it was going too quick! Everything I had dreamed of for so many years and everything I had spent all my evenings and weekends planning was nearly here and I wasn’t ready! Well I was ready physically, but I wasn’t ready mentally! I wish I had appreciated the run up more than I initially did because those months and years are so exciting but I spent the majority of it wishing them away hoping I’d wake up and it would be 3rd October! Everyone tells you it will be the quickest day of your life and it becomes such a cliché because even the girl from HR that you hardly even know but say hello to every morning tells you that ‘it goes so quick, cherish every second.’ These people; they are not lying. I was prepared for it to go quick but not that quick!! And it really is just one day, 24 hours measly hours. I would spent the rest of my life planning a wedding and ‘stressing’ over guest lists and centre pieces if it meant I could do that day again but this time I would soak it all in because believe it or not I actually miss wedmin!! (Admin that’s wedding related for those of you who aren’t down with the bridezilla lingo)
Back to the quote I posted which says
“Just because it isn’t happening right now doesn’t mean it never will”
Because life is not there just to run through as fast as you can trying to grab promotions at work, marriage, kids, huge houses, fancy cars (as much as these things are lovely) but this ain’t supermarket sweep. You really don’t have to set yourself up with so much urgency. You do things in your own time . . at your own pace and try to ignore everyone else on the way because everyone’s journey is different! I am nearly 25 and live with my Mum, Dad and Danny, other people my age have their own home, car, dog, broadband . . But what does that even matter!? I am me and they are them. It’s easier said than done but ‘plans’ never go to plan! Life happens and whilst life is happening you can’t forget to enjoy it on the way! We’ve lived here together for 4 years and saved every penny of our own money to get on the property ladder, that was never my ‘plan’ was I was daydreaming in high school with my fluffy pen in hand . . I thought I would move out at 20, have my own house, be the boss of Claires Accesiores and drive a cream mini (bless me). That plan does not sound the least bit interesting to me now because it didn’t involve Danny and now we have ‘our’ plans (plus Claires can’t really be around for much longer can it . . £8 for a pair of earrings!? Ever heard of primark girls! The 14 year old me would be the CEO of a bankrupt business)
I’m not taking for granted a single second of being newlywed! So when we sit on the sofa in our pyjamas on a Wednesday night I will look forward to that just as much as I look forward to us buying our first home in the very near future. I’m not making the mistake of fast forwarding life to the amazing parts anymore because I’m going to enjoy the ride along the way! Life is for cherishing, not wishing away! (All that said I CAN’T WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS . . Oh the irony)