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Mama you’ve got this

Pregnancy is no walk in the park. You’re tired, swollen, nauseous, chubby, hangry . . The list goes on. I know some people are super lucky and don’t have any ‘side effects’ when pregnant but the majority of us do. And it ain’t pretty. No I’m not glowing Sheila, I’m profusely sweating.

Besides the fact your body is rapidly changing and your adapting to a new way of life you also have to adjust to a lot of big changes to your lifestyle. No alcohol, no cured meats, no soft cheese etc etc but where do you go to ask all the burning questions? Your Dr? Your GP? Your friends? Everyone has conflicting opinions or information and sometimes you just want it simply put. You don’t want to be preached at or thrown into an oblivion of scientific jargon. For this exact reason Mama Mio have teamed up with Melissa Schweiger Kleinman and created the ‘Mama You’ve got this’ e-book. A totally free, informal, friendly and honest guide to help you through pregnancy. The book covers so many topics such as sleep, skincare, mindfulness, recipes and fitness to name a few.

I was invited to Manchester to celebrate the launch of their new e-book and to celebrate all things pregnancy. We started the day with meditation followed by lunch and a session in the spa at Hale Country Club. Then later on we went for a meal at Grand Pacific which was simply delicious! It was so lovely to meet and and chat to like minded women. It’s nice to know there’s a brand out there like Mama Mio who are doing it for the pregnant ladies. Because with pregnancy it might not be easy, but it’s always worth it and like the book says ‘Mama you’ve got this’!

A huge thank you to Mama Mio for inviting me I had the best time and met some gorgeous ladies! It was a brilliant day and I’ve just added a few photos of our day and what we go up to. I wish I took more photos but we just had so much fun chatting and getting to know everyone!

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They see me rollin’ | BabyZen YoYo+

Is there a switch in your brain that suddenly flicks when you become pregnant to make you obsessed with prams? Surely there must be because before Evie I never once looked at a pram and thought ‘phhwoar’ yet now it’s a daily occurance. Yes a gorgeous looking pram was very high up on my list of priorities when I was pregnant but a couple of months into being a mother I realised there’s so much more to a pram than just how it looks. For me the older Evie got the more I could not be bothered lugging the heavy chassis in and out the car, clipping the seat on and off to dismantle it and also removing the wheels just so it fits in the boot. So you can imagine my excitement on discovering the BabyZen YoYo+, look how small it folds up!!! *Danny just stand there and act natural* queue the eye roll . . The poor life of an Instagram husband.


The BabyZen YoYo+ in my opinion is a hybrid between a pram and a stroller. It’s a little more fancy and a lot better looking than your ‘average’ stroller yet it’s so much lighter and niftier than a pram. We were extremely lucky to be gifted a YoYo+ (thank you BabyZen!) and I have honestly had a ball road testing it! When a Mum gets a new pram it’s the equivalent of a man getting a new car right!? The claim is that the YoYo+ stroller can do anything, anywhere! So we took it to the park, we took it round the shops, down cobbled streets, in coffee shops and obviosuly to Tesco. It folds and unfolds, it is unbelievably light (around 6kg), can be carried like a bag and can be one-hand driven. I kind of felt like I was pushing a go kart at times because it’s that nifty, there is no heaviness to it; even with a chunky Evie Pops in it it seems so light and effortless to push! 

Obviosuly the biggest test of them all was WILL THE BABY WHO REFUSES TO SLEEP IN HER PRAM SLEEP!? And I am happy to report back SHE SLEPT. I was dubious at first as the hood comes down to a 90 degree (ish? I’m no mathmatician) angle and when trying to get the noseiest baby in all the land to sleep it’s usually essential to block her view from everything. However she drifted off to sleep with no problems whatsoever! The seat doesn’t recline flat like some other strollers, I would say it reclines to a 135 angle (oh I am laughing at myself, my sister would be proud as she’s a maths teacher) but I think Evie preferred that as she can be a bit of a crier when laid flat in a pram or stroller. *side note I just googled it and it’s a 140 degree recline*

One of the main selling points of the stroller is that when it’s collapsed it can be classed as an item of hand luggage and you can take it onboard most aeroplanes (as long as it fits within their hand luggage dimensions). I don’t know about you but have you ever flown to Palma airport and had to carry a 20 something lb baby all the way to the luggage carousel? Because I have. And let me tell you it’s near on back breaking. Having this stroller to hand as soon as you step off the plane is going to be game changer I’m telling you! *wondering now whether this is a good enough excuse to book a holiday!?*

If one of my ‘Mum friends’ (what a creepy term) asked me whether they should get a BabyZen YoYo+, my answer would be YES! I’m seriously impressed by it and me being the savvy forward thinker that I am even chose it in the colour grey as I knew I would use it for baby number 2 (if we are lucky enough) and therefore making it non gender specific. I say that because they do this in the most gorgggggeous ginger colour (a muted pink tone) which I kind of regret not getting . . but I keep having to remind myself I’ve been sensible by choosing grey. I just know we will get so much use out of this stroller that it seemed like the right thing to do by picking grey! Although they do sell separate fabric packs so you can swap and change colours to your heart’s content. On a final note as I feel I have rambled quite a bit (standard Emma) I thought I would just summarise some of the key features of the stroller . . . It fits into the overhead aeroplane storage when folded (H52 x W44 x D18cm), it has a good sized shopping basket, includes a raincover, has 4 wheel suspension, it’s a soft-drive system, fabrics are machine washable and interchangable and the hood has UPF 50+ protection. If you want to use the YoYo+ from birth you can simply just buy the newborn pack which is sold separately. The newborn pack transforms the stroller to a lie-flat parent facing pushchair. Once children reach six months of age, parents use the six month + pack which converts the YoYo+ into a forward facing stroller. TA DAH. 

If you’re interested in the YoYo+ you can visit the BabyZen website by clicking here and check out all the different chassis and fabric colour combinations!

This blog post was sponsored by BabyZen but as always all thoughts and opinions are my own.

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The first of many

I’m a self confessed party planner addict. I’ll be the first to admit I get carried away but ever since planning our wedding it just sparked a little obsession for me. I love spending hours during an evening scrolling through Pinterest and Instagram and I just enjoy being able to get my teeth stuck into a little project. So when we realised that our whole family would be in our home town for our cousins 18th it seemed like the perfect oppuritiny to throw a birthday bash for the girls 1st birthdays. Evie and Isla are only 12 days apart in age and Lil and I are best friends as well as cousins so it just seemed so perfect for our girls to have a joint party. 

Our cakes were made by a lovely lady called Laura who is local to me and I found by chance when I ordered cupcakes from her a few years ago. It turns out she went to my high school, she lives round the corner from my Mum and Dad and she’s a slimming worlder too (@raising_3boys_sw). She currently only makes cakes for friends and family however when her youngest son starts school next year she will be focusing on her cakes so if you’re local to the Southport area keep an eye out on Laura’s page because you can see just how incredible her cakes are!

Our beautiful cake toppers and cupcake toppers were made by the lovely Anna at Lucy Rose Party who makes the most fabulous party decor. The toppers are the perfect finishing touches to any cake.

I came across @whirling.in.wonderland on Instagram and I was immediately obsessed with these garlands! Once I saw it I couldn’t get it out of my head (anybody else like me and just obsess over things until you get them!?) and I knew it would make the most stunning back drop for the party table. I messaged Kimberley and asked if she could squuuuueze me in as I knew her order books were pretty full but luckily she had a slot so I ordered the 15 twirl garland in pastel colours and as you can see from the pictures it looked incredible! I’ve never come across anything like this before I just think it’s so unique and eye catching!


I was lucky enough (and when I say that I really mean it. I’m so thankful and grateful when people send me things. I would never ever contact a shop or business and ask for something for free because I’m just not about that life but I am genuinely grateful when people do send me things out of their own choice. TANGENT.) to be contacted by Aimee who owns Make My Day Stationery and asked if I would like some unicorn party boxes. Of course I jumped at the chance because quite frankly they’re bloody fabulous! What I didn’t expect was all the extras Aimee sent to us too including personalised straws, thank you tags and some beautiful prints.

I have been following Pretty Little Maison since before I was pregnant and had been in awe of Alice’s talent. She kindly made us a family name sign which we’ve had for well over  a year before she ventured into working on chalkboards full time. I knew I was going to order Evie a birthday board for a very long time so when it came round to it I was so excited to design it with Alice. It’s such a lovely keepsake and we will be framing ours and putting it up in Evie’s bedroom.

Isla also had a beautiful birthday print which was created by the lovely Emma who owns Mackymoo Creations.

I decided to do the party ‘favours’ myself as it was just a little something for people to be able to take home if they wanted to so I made the cone popcorn bags which I purchased off eBay (click here) they were only £1.85 for 25 cones and pink ties which I then stuck unicorn thank you stickers on also from eBay (click here) and filled with popcorn!


Beaus Little Bakery then very kindly sent us the most beautiful unicorn biscuits which finished off the party favours perfectly! Look how cute they are! Shimmery rainbow unicorn biscuits. AMAZING.

Also I just want to say a huge thank you to the always lovely @_eviemichelle for the beautiful bows for Evie and Isla which went perfectly with their party dresses! I’m so glad I was able to include so many Instagram shops and businesses into the girls party as we have shared our first year of motherhood with so many of you through Instagram which has had a few lows but so many highs! There’s an mixture of gifted items but also a lot of things which I purchased with my own money here and I hope this comes across as genuine and grateful and not braggy in any way. I know this is slightly excessive to some and the girls won’t remember a thing but we created so many amazing memories and shared such a lovely day with our family and that’s what it’s all about. 


Oh and one last thing. What is a 1st birthday party without your own snapchat geo filter hey!? (Really easy and simple to do, just log into Snapchat on a computer or laptop, create your filter, select your location and purchase! Ours cost just £5!!)

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Collect with Clubcard

If you’ve followed me on Instagram for a while you’ll know that 70% of my maternity leave has been spent in Tesco. Okay maybe that’s an exaggeration but I have spent a hell of a lot of time over the past 12 months. I’ve just got a slight addiction to that shop . . . But with a baby in tow it’s without a doubt the best shop for our family as it literally has everything under one roof. Not only that but I always get sent vouchers and coupons through my Clubcard and as the saying goes “every little helps” (particularly on maternity leave!)

Tesco have re-launched their Clubcard which is now contactless so a tap is all it takes and it’s really simple to use alongside the newly designed app. It’s now easier than ever to collect your points, keep track of them, watch them tot up and then spend them in-store or even convert them into exciting days out. It’s that simple to turn your shop into big adventures. Which let’s face it, when you’ve got a family being able to save money on days out just by doing your weekly shop is win win!

If you’re anything like me I am constantly losing paperwork and most stuff that comes through the post gets thrown into a draw never to be seen again. That’s why I find the app so handy because it saves all of your vouchers and coupons in one place and you can simply print them off as and when you need them. It also gives you a running total of your points and the cut off date to collect points before you receive your vouchers. We’re saving ours up to take Evie to Nickelodeon Land as 50p of Clubcard vouchers coverts into £1.50 to spend at Blackpool Pleasure Beach; therefore a £24 adult ticket will only cost you £8 in Clubcard vouchers!

If you head over to the Tesco Clubcard website you can see for yourself just how many different rewards are available. I’ll be totally honest I thought the most you could get with Clubcard points was a cheap pizza when eating out but there is so much more that you can use your points on. From spa days to holidays, driving lessons to breakdown cover, a trip to the zoo or even paint balling. It’s a really simple and cost effective way to keep the whole family entertained as there are hundreds of places and activities to choose from. It’s always a bonus when a family day doesn’t have to break the bank!

And one last thing; before motherhood turned me into a bit of a self confessed Tesco addict (this is definitely confirmed when you are on first name terms with some of the checkout staff) I had no idea I had been collecting Clubcard vouchers so I had a lovely £19 voucher waiting for me when I logged into my account! So it’s definitely worth logging in to your account (click here) regularly to check for vouchers and keep track of your savings.

This post was sponsored by Tesco but as always all thoughts and opinions are my own.

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Returning to work

There’s this thing that people will do all the way through your maternity leave and that is ask you “when do you go back to work?” It’s constant and consistent and it’s always said with a twinge to their face. It’s the dreaded question.

4th September 2017 in case you were wondering.

I have had the best 13 months of my life, 11 months and 3 weeks of them have been spent with Evie Pops and they have been more incredible than I could have ever imagined. But when I embarked on maternity leave I knew that it was exactly that; a period of leave. I’ve always known I’d be returning to work for financial reasons like 99% of the population I can’t just give up my job to stay at home with my child. If you can then you are super lucky. We have a mortgage to pay, we need food on the table and clothes on our backs. I’ve tried to cherish every day of maternity leave, from the days where we go on adventures and eat cake to the days where we sit in our pyjamas and watch CBeebies. My god some of those days have been testing and some days (most*) I breathe a sigh of relief when Daniel walks through the door but nevertheless I’ve tried to cherish it all.

I love my daughter beyond words; I genuinely think about how much I love her and realise there are not enough words in the dictionary for me to describe it. However that doesn’t mean I have to be surgically attached to her until she turns 18. As much as I adore being a Mum, which I honestly do with all my might, I also love being just Emma.  I honestly believe that me returning to work will benefit the both of us! It makes me all sorts of anxious at the thought of leaving Evie and her trotting of to nursery after spending near on every day together for the past 12 months but as I mentioned in my Instagram post the other day I’m also quite excited. She’s a sociable little soul and she thrives off being around other children. You can see the excitement in her eyes and those swirling wrists of hers when she interacts with kids whether they’re 6 months old or 8 years old! I’m excited that she gets to spend two whole days a week at nursery being stimulated, learning new things, being creative and making friends (in all honesty sometimes I feel guilty she doesn’t get enough stimulation when I’ve got to clean the bathroom, hang the washing out and nip to Tesco). It’s scary that she’ll have this little part of her life that I’m not a part of but in the same way I’ll have a little part of my life that she’s not a part of. No one at work will expect me to wipe up their shit bum (or at least I friggin hope not), I will be able to go to the toilet alone, eat my food without sharing (being snarled at) and swap Mr Tumble for meeting minutes.

It’s okay to be a mother but also want a bit of ‘you’ time; to continue to focus on your future, your career, your goals. My career path has changed dramatically since having Evie because I made the decision to go from being full time to part time and therefore it has closed a lot of doors. But I’m more than okay with that. I have chosen to give up a small part of my career in exchange for a larger part in my daughters life. That’s my choice but some people don’t even have the choice. I feel lucky that I’m able to go back part time. Some mothers don’t return to work at all, some mothers return full time, others work weekends or night shifts and you know what . . We’re all doing the best we can. We’re all doing what works for us. There is no right or wrong. 

I got slated on a certain “website” for returning to work after having a baby and I quote “it seems madness for them to have children and then need to go back to work. She’s going back to work in a few months and her little one isn’t even one yet” I honestly couldn’t believe what I was reading?! There are so many things wrong with this statement I wouldn’t even know where to start!!!! All I will say is YES I’m returning to work as I am contractually obliged to all thanks to occupational maternity pay (which I’m unbelievably grateful for) but also because I WANT to. How about that heyyyyyy? P.s. I return to work one WEEK before my daughter turns one *eyeroll.eyeroll.eyeroll*

Travel

Croatia 

It’s taken me a while (understatement of the year) to get this blog post up as I ummed and ahhed about whether to do it or not. This is probably more of quick recap of our time in Croatia rather than a ‘review’ so to speak. I do feel like holidays are so person specific that you can’t possibly please everyone (reason 101 why I should not spend hours on Trip Advisor) for example; something that I find really important in a holiday may have no relevance to someone else. However I have had a lot of questions about where we stayed in Croatia since I obviously instagramed the hell out of our first family holiday so I thought I would share a few details for those who have asked.

We stayed at the TUI Family Life Bellevue Resort in Rabac, Croatia. We chose Croatia because I’ve heard amazing things (the scenery did not disappoint!) and because the flight is just under 2 hours from Manchester! We booked through Thompson, something we had never done before. I am obsessed with booking holidays, it genuinely becomes a full time job and I research for hours, days, weeks and months. In the past I’ve always booked our hotel, flights and transfers separately so to book a package holiday was a new experience for me. Danny and I have only visited one all inclusive hotel before which we both hated . . (Okay it was just me who hated it). In all honesty I’ve never seen the appeal of eating in the same place every night as I love getting dressed up and going out on holiday (as it’s such a rarity at home). However with a 9 month in tow we figured AI would be our best bet as it meant no cooking or cleaning (if we did self catered) and as Evie does mostly BLW we thought it would be easy to eat from the buffet and also the added benefit of it being a family life hotel meant we weren’t worried about making a mess or being nosey at meal times! 

As it got closer to our holiday we became slightly sceptical as this was a brand new hotel and the opening had been delayed by a few weeks so when we arrived it had only been open for 10 days. I stupidly joined a Facebook group as I wanted to keep up to date with what was going on however it was just a page for everyone to vent their anger and issues which in turn worried me even more so I quickly unfollowed that group! Thankfully when we arrived apart from a few expected teething problems everything was pretty much perfect! The hotel was stylish and modern, the location was stunning and the staff were lovely especially with Evie! 

I’m not sure whether I’m a knitpicker (Danny would say yes) or that these issues we faced would annoy everyone but there was a shortage of highchairs so every mealtime became a bit stressful! We had to hover near someone who looked like they were about to leave in hope we could swipe their highchair which became extremely tedious by the 4th day. I know it was only the second week of them being open but you would think with it being a family life hotel they would have expected a lot of kids!? Also we stayed in the main reception block which was brand new (beautiful stylish and very modern) but their was only ONE lift in a block of 6 floors. Again, a family life hotel where the majority of people are bound to have prams and strollers and there was ONE lift!? Seems absolutely crazy to me! On a few occasions we ended up lugging a 22lb baby, a changing bag, a stroller and inflatables up 5 flights of stairs as the queue for the lift was ridiculous. Hopefully they will be able to address these issues as you do have to give them the benefit of doubt with it being such a new hotel. 


At the hotel there were so many day beds as well as regular sun beds which I think made our holiday so much easier with Evie. Her and Danny spent a lot of time napping (winning at life when Daddy day care takes place in the shade and I can sunbathe) which meant we didn’t have to try to get her to nap in the pram very much.

We honestly had such a wonderful first family holiday and I really want to return to Croatia as it was so so beautiful! I hope this answers any questions I’ve had but please do feel free to drop me a comment or message on Instagram and I will get back to you. 

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Ella’s Kitchen 10 month goodies

We are huge fans of Ella’s Kitchen here in the Manchester household. As I’ve mentioned before; weaning Evie was one of the most daunting things I’ve ever done. Mostly because I didn’t have a clue where to start, what to do? How much? How often? Plus the fact your baby has just drank milk for 6 month so moving onto solids is scary! So when I came across the Ella’s Kitchen app and their Veg for Victory campaign it helped me massively! It had a plan of action and a ‘structure’ so to speak plus it was full of information which is exactly what I needed! Once I found my feet and I felt confident in what I was doing then we were away and weaning became so much fun! I genuinely believe focusing on veggies in the beginning has played a massive part in Evie’s weaning journey and she is now pretty open to all foods and enjoys the majority of things which in turn makes my life a lot easier.


Ella’s Kitchen recently sent us some new goodies to try out now Evie that has hit the 10 month mark as this coincides with their products going up a stage. Their 10 month meals have a lot more texture to them and are bigger in size and the snacks are also aimed at babies age and their development. For example the melty puffs (which have always been a massive hit with Eves) now come as melty hoops which are a lot smaller and encourage babies to start using the ‘pincer grip’ to pick up food.

We also received a chicken casserole, cheesy pasta, tomato-y pasta and cottage pie. As Evie has gotten older wherever possible I do try to give her whatever we are having for dinner (or a similar variation) but these meals are so handy to have in the house for when you just don’t have time to whip up a full meal. Sometimes you walk through the door at 5pm and Eves has the patience of a pea when it comes to being hungry (I do wonder where she gets that from . . ) so I need something super quick but still healthy! The thing I love about Ella’s Kitchen is there are no hidden nasties and the ingredients are clearly labelled on the back. Also they send their products in the best brightly coloured boxes full of shredded paper which Evie thinks is just the best thing ever.


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Evie’s 10 month ‘update’


It’s hit me like a tonne of bricks this week. Ten months old. It feels like some sort of milestone because it’s double figures? Not only that but she’s come on leaps and bounds within the space of 4 weeks. Now its all ‘is she crawling yet?’, ‘When do you go back to work?’, ‘Is she talking much?’ And I’ve entered panic mode. Panicking that I go back to work in 8 weeks . . . am I soaking up every second of her?, are we having enough fun?, is she stimulated enough?, will she miss me?, will she remember me? . . You know all the normal daily crazy Mum thoughts. Of course she’ll remember me but from being with her for (pretty much) every single day for a whole year to suddenly handing her over to a stranger at nursery is a daunting thought. But for now I’m going to try and focus on the present and not the future. We will cherish every day and when we get to the next hurdle that’s when we will overcome it. There’s no point wasting today worrying about tomorrow!


We have entered 10 months old with 4 teeth! We’ve gone from none to 4 in the space of a few weeks; 3 on the bottom and one on the top. I won’t lie we didn’t even realise she had 3 bottom teeth, we just felt them one day and there they were, 3 little toothy pegs. But that top tooth. Wow. You my friend are a little bitch (in the voice of Kim from Kim and Aggy of course). You hear people talk about teething but when you experience it first hand it really does make for hard work. Thankfully we are out of it now and she’s back to her sassy little self . . Until the next one makes an appearance!

We have started to move! Finally! My little lazy lady has started to finally shift her bottom and make her way round the room. She’s not crawling yet but she is doing this hysterical bum shuffle roll and shimmy Lara Croft style to get from one side of the room to the other. I’m not exactly encouraging her to crawl because let’s face it once she starts moving she’ll have my life. All in your own time little one, there’s no rush.

If you watch my Instagram stories you will see she’s become quite the dancer. Not so much moves like Jagger but more like moves like Mummy (after a wine). She’s an absolute hoot and has us (and everyone else around her) in hysterics every time she does it. I honestly don’t know where she gets her rhythm from.

We are still being very screechy. Think high pitched. Think loud shrieks. Think sore throat roars. However we’ve started to actually ‘chat’ a lot more and Dada is still her favourite word. But it’s okay baby because we save the best till last don’t we and when you say Mama we will shout it from the rooftops!!

Don’t get me wrong when I see a squishy little newborn I get all sorts of broody however I adore her at this age. She’s so much fun, so responsive, so cheeky, so smiley, so mischievious and just a proper little character. 

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Evie’s holiday wardrobe

Long gone are the days where I am obsessing over my holiday outfits months in advance. It’s now all about Evie! I was panic buying clothes for myself 2 days before we flew as I really didn’t give it a second thought until I began to pack. Whereas Evie’s holiday wardrobe had been building since March! I thought I would do a little blog post on her holiday essentials and outfits.

(Hat from Sunshine and Shade, costume from Monsoon)(Towel hoodie from Baby Gap)(Costume from Monsoon)(Sunsuit fromHatley)

(Top from Zara, sandals from Baby Gap, shorts from Matalan)

 (Jumpsuit from Primark)

(Dress from Zara)

(Dress from Zara)


(Dress from Next)

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The things they don’t tell you about

So it’s 26th September 2016 and we have had our tiny little human being that belongs to us in our lives for two whole weeks. Two weeks of crying every day with happiness (me and Danny), two weeks of floating on cloud 9, two weeks of feeling utterly blessed and surprisingly two weeks of feeling confident. I felt like I was born to do this, it came naturally to me and I didn’t feel these ‘baby blues’ that people spoke of! The general rule of thumb is that the baby blues hits you a few days after getting out of hospital however I felt nothing but sheer joy. That was until I woke up near enough two weeks to the day after giving birth and BAM I was hit with all emotions you could ever contemplate feeling all at once. Sadness, happiness, fear, jealousy, anger, love. All at once. I freaked out big time. I cried non stop for 48 hours. I genuinely believed I had post natal depression as I could not stop crying and I couldn’t see how I would ever stop crying. My mind was hazy and I couldn’t think properly. I constantly worried I was going to drop Evie or fall down the stairs holding her and I couldn’t watch the news because every time I saw something I immediately thought it was going to happen to my baby.

At the time I couldn’t see how I was ever going to overcome these feelings, they were such strong thoughts and emotions that I believed they would be with me forever. Now I realise that my hormones were all over the place (I had also just been diagnosed with PUPPS but that’s a story for another day!), my body had just had to cope with a hell of lot and it was totally normal to feel this way! You now are in charge of another human being, a human being who you love like you have never loved before; of course you are going to be all over the place! Anxiety + wild hormones = a little bit cray cray and that is totally okay! It’s okay not to be okay! You’re not alone. I could not have got through those few weeks without Danny and my Mum they were incredible. Post partum anxiety is probably the most normal and natural thing that can happen to you I just wish I knew this at the time! 

I doubted myself so much when I was pregnant, would I be a good Mum? How would I cope? is Motherhood really for me? But from the second I met my baby girl my whole world just shifted. Everything fell in to place. No one had me down as a ‘natural’ mother and I’m okay with that! Even I knew that pre baby Emma didn’t come across as an overly ‘maternal woman’ (what ever that may be). Pre baby Emma was lazy, selfish, highly strung and stubborn. I make myself sound like a wanker, I probably was bit! I’ve never had confidence in myself with regards to anything, but surprisingly I doubted myself more during pregnancy than I did once I actually had Evie! Of course I still do doubt myself when it comes to parenting but at the same time I know I’m capable of making the best decision for my baby more than anyone else and that I was meant to do this. A lot of people say they lose themselves when they have a baby, well in fact I found myself and I’m not ever going to shy away that. Evie has changed me in more ways than I could have ever imagined and I am eternally thankful for that.